January 2023

The month felt like it went by fairly quickly. It was overall a good month. I took things slow, tried to plan my days, worked on getting enough sleep, short yoga sessions in the morning and meditation. Focusing on meal preps as well. I want to reduce inflammation in our food. Focus on health and…

Wow, 2023!

First of all, Happy New Year! I hope you all had a nice time celebrating and welcoming the new year and saying goodbye to 2022. To be honest, 2022 went by pretty quick without me realising it. Nevertheless, looking back, I’ve gone through so much and done quite a lot of things. Did a decent…

My Mother Had A Personality Disorder

As much as I wish that no one would think that I’m being mean, ungrateful and disrespectful to the memory of my mother, I can only ask for one to try and understand my side of the story. I can only hope that my point of view will be taken not as an attack, but…

Under the weather = Anti-social

Unfortunately I have caught a bug which gave me a horrible sore throat for the past week now. Other symptoms include fever, headache and body aches. Been feeling so weak and uncomfortable. Have no appetite because my throat just hurts so bad every time i swallow. Basically just been indoors, watching TV and napping. I…

My Childhood in Country Heights

I was born in Pantai Medical Centre, KL. At the time my family resided in a house in UK heights, Ampang. Shortly after that we moved to a house in Taman Tun. When I turned 5 we moved to Country Heights, Kajang. It’s like this suburban gated housing neighbourhood and the houses there are pretty…

An Unfortunate Happening

During my time of working at the beach resort, we had so many guests from Russia because our place was only around 20 minutes to the Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF)’s airbase in Gong Kedak. Since our country had purchased some jet fighter’s from the Russian Military in particular the Sukhoi (Su-30MKM) jet fighters, Our…

Autumn is here

It’s been many years that I have been able to experience the Autumn season. From when I was studying in Swansea, Wales in 2008 up until 2011 and ever since moving to France in 2019. This year feels different. I knew I’ve always enjoyed Autumn, I just never realised just how much I did. Ever…

2022 PRIDE EXPERIENCE

I have definitely come a long way from hiding my queer self since I was a kid. It took many years for me to realise that there is nothing wrong with being attracted to girls and even falling in love with one and wanting to have a future with them. We are all human and…

Disneyland Paris Pride 2022

A few years ago when I met Amélie, she talked to me about going to Disneyland Paris to celebrate pride. I found that to be such a wonderful way to celebrate pride, in a magical place like Disneyland. So since this year being the year that I promised myself that I would put myself out…

Floating

Do you ever feel like you don’t look forward to anything? Just living life day to day. I’ve been feeling stuck. I haven’t been able to create a working routine for myself. Ever since before the big day. Before the big day, all I was doing was preparing for it, then came the big day…

Our Wedding

We got married on June 17th, 2019 at the city mayor’s office. It was a beautiful day with Amélie’s immediate family, grandmother, and our witnesses. We got married in the morning then had a barbecue hotdog lunch together. Sweet and simple. Since then we have been saving up for our wedding reception. Married life has…

Memory

Do you remember the earliest memory you have ever had? For me it’s my 2nd birthday party. I remembered the dress I was wearing, a black dress with flowers on it. I was at my birthday cake getting ready to blow the candles, surrounded by other kids. I kept leaning towards my cake and got…

Why am I so public with my lifestyle?

In honour of Pride Month i’d like to take this opportunity to talk about my sexual orientation, my lifestyle choices and why I chose to publicly put myself, my lifestyle and my love life out there on social media. Growing up and trying to figure out what I like and how I would like to…

An open letter to those who are anti-LGBT

When you find happiness and love,I am happy for youWhen you find someone to spend the rest of your life with,I congratulate you When you do a big wedding for your marriage,I attend and celebrate with you, your unionI would never want you to be unhappyI would never judge you for your own choicesI would…

That time I almost died

During the year of 2015 I was in the hotel industry for a few years already and I became too into it without realizing I was neglecting my health. Working as the Manager of a resort is very demanding. It takes up all of my time and requires me to be on duty all day…

What it’s like to lose a mother to ALS

My mom has always been a very strong character. She’s pretty much extreme in everything she does. She worked so hard and against all odds, she went from a financially poor background to making a mark in the corporate world alongside powerful people who are mostly men. She’s definitely one of a kind. She loved…

Being gay in Malaysia

Malaysia was listed on the top 9 dangerous countries in the world to be LGBTQ. It’s really tough to realise what you really want for yourself with everyone around you telling you what you should want or how to live your life. Coming out and being open about our sexual orientation can be hurtful to…

My father abandoned me

When I was five years old my parents got divorced. As in most cases, I continued to live with my mom and was able to see and spend time with my dad on some weekends. My parents had serious issues while they were married and even after they got divorced. Their issues revolved around infidelity,…

Adopted

Since I was pretty much neglected by both of my parents, I spent most of my time at home with my little sister and my nanny. When I’m not at home, I’m at kindergarten, school or university. Growing up I was lucky enough to meet a few wonderful people who welcomed me to their lovely…

Confessions of a cheater

I have never been loyal to my partners in my life. Most of my past relationships were pretty toxic. As usual, it starts out great and romantic. Then, their true colours start to show and we realise how incompatible we are with each other. Most people think once they find someone good for them they…